"Thoughts are the shadows of feelings, always darker, emptier, and simpler. I don't care if they're fake or real, I just thank that they're showing up at all. I have black periods. Who does not? But they are not a part of me; they are not a part of illness, but a part of my being. Some might say I have the courage to have them. It's four o' clock in the morning. This sucks."